2:14 p.m. - 2002-03-15
make sure to share the weed brownies with your roommates
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"Make sure to thank Mom for the brownies."
"Ok, I will."
"Tell her the marijuana ones were the best. The ones with the weed."
"Can I really tell her that?"
"Sure."
"Ok, and I'll make sure she knows you were generous enough to share them with your roommates."
"Excellent."
I just got off the phone with David, my big brother, 19 1/2 years old. He's a freshpersun at Bates. (I don't know if I mentioned him in this diary, though he's certainly in my old one. He's taking calculus, Spanish, microeconomics, and globalization this semester, and is having a tough time, especially since he didn't DO very much in high school. He went to this school in Utah from April-November and then skiied competitively (freestyle) during the winter, that's how he knows a bunch of people in the Olympics and stuff (see the entry about Salt Lake 2002). He said I should take AP Calculus so I don't have to take it in college. That's what Lauren did, and I must admit, it would be SO SO SO nice not to take math in college. But the thing is, number one, I suck at math. It's not even funny, I just don't get it. Then, there's the fact that it's a two-year course. If I graduate next year, that won't work. Maggie did say she'll work with me my "senior" year so that I'm ready for college math, but that may or may not happen.
I'm getting a little scared about college. I don't work, as in, I really don't work. I procrastinate on everything. I spend all my time online, I can't focus when I need to, and I'm not a very good test-taker. Then my experience at CTY last summer which means that now people terrify me, not people persay, but their thoughts. Not knowing what they're thinking, not being ABLE to control what they're thinking. It flips me out.
Where would I like to go to college? My number-one choice was Middlebury. I don't like hot weather (it's in Vermont), it's a great school, plus it has a fantastic language department. But if Lauren's going there, I don't want to. I've followed in Lauren's footsteps my entire life, and I love her dearly, but I do NOT want to go to the same school as her.
I don't want to go somewhere with distribution requirements. I think Cornell has them, but I'm not sure. I don't know enough about Wesleyan to make an informed decision, or Yale, but Mom says I'll like either one, though Yale is probably a shitload of work even just because of the name. I think it would be hard to be a girl at Amherst, because the guys can all hook up with girls from UMass and the other colleges in that consortium thing (I learned all this info a year ago, so excuse me if it's wrong). I like the town, though; I spent a summer there. Hmmm. I didn't like Hampshire or Bennington, and I don't want to go to an all-girls school, like Wellesley. Harvard is too, well, Harvard-ish, if that makes any sense. Brown would be interesting because it's a good location and you're allowed to design your own major, but I might take advantage of that and also I've heard they don't pay much attention to undergrads. I don't want to go to a school in the city, so that rules out NYU and Columbia. I'd like to go somewhere in New England, which rules out Stanford and Duke. Mom thinks I'd like Vassar, but I've heard REALLY bad stuff about it (Jen & Chris both went there). Eh. That leaves me with... nothing. Great :)
Carley liked my psychic book report of "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy." :) Our new assignment was to find a passage from a book, cut it out, trade with someone else, and then write a story that included that passage. Alexa gave Kelsey something from David Eddings, Kelsey gave me something from THGTTG, and I gave Alexa something from this. Yay, I love doing hyperlinks :) Thanks Katy! But yeah, back to Carley. She's also going to bring in tee-shirts on Tuesday for us to decorate. She had wanted us to make them an advertisement for our favorite books (in my case, "Wicked," though "The Mists of Avalon" and a bunch of others could take its place. Sometime I'll have to make a list of ALL my favorite books.)
After classes with Carley I did my chemistry and French homework, worked out and watched "Friends," and started on my math (I did one problem) but then Missy called, back from Italy! Yay! I'm hoping maybe she can come over sometime this weekend so she can make up the chemistry, it's a good excuse for my parents, plus I've been pretty good about getting my work done this week. So if I get a lot done today I may have a good bargaining chip. We'll see what happens. My goal for today is to finish my global studies and catch up on the Spanish (my ten minutes a day has escalated into forty, since I didn't do it, heh heh).
So I did end up finishing my chemistry outline, and I handed it in to Mr. C. It's so beautiful. :) I also copied my notes over so that they're legible and photocopied them for Missy. In chem today we talked about the equilibrium constant. We have a test on Wednesday and then we're starting a unit on acids and bases, maybe I can start outlining them this weekend. The thing is, I desperately want 100 on the Wednesday test, I'm pretty comfortable with the material and it would do a lot for my average and my confidence!!! So maybe I should just study!!!
Mrs. H wasn't in French, so I did the homework with Maya. I do NOT get the subjunctive at all. Mrs. B wasn't there when I usually do volunteer service, so I finished the chem stuff and then read my story for Hebrew. Then the eyes on my digital media project are NOT working at ALL, I can't get them to look like they belong together even though they come from the same image of the same persun, and the whole thing still looks cut-and-pasted, it really sucks. Argh, I don't know what to do, she's giving us the ditto for the new assignment on Monday, which is something about a series of stamps. Maybe I'll ask her for advice, but then I have to follow through on it, and... I don't know. I guess I'll just get it as good as I can, hand it in, get a B, and then fix it and hand it in again for a better grade, which she says we can do. The only problem with that is that I would have to do it before the end of thi marking period, which is pretty soon. We just got our progress cards. Argh.
In journalism we read a feature from the New York Times, about this guy who traveled 230 miles on the subway for his senior thesis paper. It was actually very well-written, an easy read. So we need to try our hands at writing a profile, which we did the first day of class (but they sucked). I have utterly no interest in interviewing anyone in my school, so I'll probably do Maggie, because she has a pretty damn interesting life. It it's good, I'll post it up here because I don't feel like going through eveything she's done. Maggie's great for that type of assignments. Hell, I wrote about her for my French midterm. :)
Homework for this weekend: math, global essay questions, an hour of Spanish, the Olympic scrapbook (a little late, but I want to do it for persunal satisfaction), the Harry Potter/Lord of the Rings editorial, the story with the paragraph from Hitchhiker's Guide, the jurnalism profile, and a writing packet for French that I'll have a quiz on on Monday. Yes, I meant to put two "on"'s there. Well, I don't have musical theater tomorrow, so I really want to sleep late. Plus, it would be great if I could get to work in Dad's office. I haven't worked in there once this school year, and I feel badly. He pays me $5 an hour, and I write the checks and occasionally do photocopying and filing. Or if that doesn't work maybe I could spend an hour or two typing for Dr. Joan, who pays me $6 an hour. She gave me this huge thing to re-type back in November, but said that there was absolutely no rush. Currently I have $12 from her I still need to work off -- she gives me $20, then lets me work it off at my leisure, because she knows I'm in eternal debt, which is pretty nice.
I got the envelope with all the fliers in it from my temple youth group, so I guess they DID get it done! :)
I started rereading "Magic Steps," because like I said in my last entry, I don't remember much about it or "Street Magic" and the next book in the series, "Cold Fire," is coming out any day now and I want it first, damnit. Haha. But Missy lent me "The Vagina Monologues" so I really want to read those. They look funny. :)
I'll end with a quote that Alok sent me.
-Jessica
"It must always sustain us because the greatness comes not when things go always good for you, but the greatness comes when you are really tested, when you take some knocks, some disappointments, when sadness comes, because only if you have been in the deepest valley can you ever know how magnificent it is to be at the highest mountain."
